So, for future reference, I will not spend three days writhing in pain in bed. I will be smart and go to the dentist. :\

Anyway, it's November already, and THAT means I have about a month to complete four major end-of-term projects for classes HAHAHAHA *bangs head against desk*. LOL, BUT I'D RATHER READ FICTIONAL STORIES ABOUT REAL PEOPLE ALL DAY EVERY DAY ANY DAY AT ALL <3 *bangs head summore*?

'Kay~ time to get some priorities straight, at least. Cuz otherwise I'm all about the homo.


TOMORROW
1) Call to confirm hours on (?)Wednesday(?) :Training Fri&Sat
2) Deposit checks at bank
3) Set up community service times
4) Return Imaging Center call :HUMAN TEST SUBJECT FTW

WITHIN WEEK
1) Finish all Soc quizzes
2) Purchase books for research paper a.k.a. GREAT SCIENCE 8D
3) Buy new rollerblade wheels
4) Get the Red B serviced
5) Set up interviews
6) Master Scottish accent (optional) for Loch Lomond (mandatory) :ACCENT AND ALL. OH. OH.
7) Get Scarborough Fair down

WITHIN NEXT TWO WEEKS
1) Buy recorder that records sounds and plays back; NOT instrument :IT'S AWESOME <3
2) Interview necessaries

WITHIN MONTH
1) Finish community service
2) Finish pole dancing career paper
3) Finish that damned green log
4) Gather sources for History research paper
5) Turn in John Stewart essay.


Right-o! Soooo, that's where I've been and this is where I'll be. I will miss you lot while I'm gone! D:

LOL. I wonder if the matching name parallels are foreshadowing Nick using Selena as his beard once more them getting back together.

Also, "The Administration". *flail* Bless his heart, can he ever be totally not himself???

No real opinion on it here. Just lemme quote Demi Lovato with "Nick Jonas is a beast". JB will be just fine <3.

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Really, these kids these days, just charging headlong and skipping steps and climbing towers I've only managed to gawk at and think to myself "meh, maybe one day". Makes me actually wanna do something with myself. Like, seriously? Things are always happening with JB. Kevin's getting engaged? What? Joe's got his joehawk back? What?? Nick's dropping a side solo album? Fuckin' serious???

They don't ever slow down, do they? And I think that's what makes them so fun to keep tabs on.

Most celebs, it's like in the spotlight and out again, and interests are peaked and then dropped.... Examp: Chris Pine!!! So low key, dude! And I love you~!

With JB, it's like they were born to live in the limelight, and they thrive. They're talented and confident and put the fuck together and so damn INSPIRING, and I don't think I've ever seen anyone so dutiful and engaged with their fans, and, hyup, I'm proud to be one.

That's all, really. I need to get two essays done today.

In reference to "See U In The Dark": THESE POOR BOYS DON'T KNOW THAT THEY'VE WRITTEN ABOUT HOW UGLY THE GIRL IN THE SONG IS.


Lyric #1:
My window frames you like a Monet

Urban Dictionary unanimous gist of what a "Monet" is:
Someone who looks attractive from far away, but fucking fugly up close.


Lyric #2:
I love to see you in the dark

...Things cannot be seen easily in the dark.


Lyric #3:
Don't come back to bed yet

BECAUSE HE WANTS HER TO STAY AWAY! o_0



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Pssst, we're just JK D:. Little Sister 'n' me have been rocking out to this song all day. It's about a dude who's just realized that his bestie has grown up into a total bombshell and he wants to bone her bad. It's really very catchy.

Title-- Kevin Found The Bunny Later

Rating-- HANDJOB.

Sum-- Nick does a magic trick for Joe.

Note-- For severus_falter, who wanted sex in a top hat. Like, wearing a top hat. Or inside a top hat. And sex inside a giant top hat made me LOL too much, so I had to settle for the next best thing. She also wanted it to be fluff!sex, but.... My version of Nick is very reserved in his fluff-givings.

( ''I've figured it out,'' Nick said, twirling the top hat on his fingertips. )

( A little late coming, but. Well.... )

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...Okay, so I'm biased.

Now, I truly, truly, TRULY adore Kevin just as much as the other two, and I do not like him any less. But when I read about the prenup, my heart broke for Danielle.

Asking someone to sign a prenup basically feels like to me:
1) Implying you don't trust the other person.
2) Implying your relationship with the other person won't work out.
3) Implying that you consider your money before you consider the other person.
4) Giving the other person reason to doubt you/the relationship.

It's a logical move on Kevin's part, but it just feels so cut throat and business-oriented. Like, Kevin? Hon? Really???

And he asked this of her after the engagement and.... Props to Danielle if she sticks with it, and the absolute best for both of them, but.... I would seriously be hurt by this. But maybe that's just me being oversensitive.


(OMG, MY FIRST OFFICIAL POST ABOUT JB AND IT'S A WHINER. D: NOOOO....)

So they're kind of roughhousing, with the others making way around them to not get caught up in the tussle, and they're just pushing and shoving and tickling and grabbing and smacking, and he's all brimmed with adrenaline at that point, worked up easily on testerone, so when his hand flings out, he doesn't even notice until his knuckles slap loud against skin and her head's jolting back from the blow.

The room falls dead silent within the second as she stumbles back and he's frozen and eaten and all he can't think is nonononoNOnono because boys don't hit girls is what he's been taught, boys NEVER hit girls. Girls are precious and special and need to be defended, and dammit he has a good mother and knows this and--

--a coquettish giggle spills from her mouth and she takes barely a moment to rub at the swell near her eye before she rushes forward with a punch of her own.

He saw stars.



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written cuz i know way too many traditional-minded men. and because i like driving/paying once in a while.

...wrong XDXD. man, the economy sucks right now.


in the meantime, i've gone back to songwriting wery, wery recently <3 (no, srsly, as in literally five minutes ago). i haven't done it from scratch since i was 12, so i thought i'd be a bit rusty, but this came together pretty quick:



VERSES
You wake up early, I'm always late
You always hurry, while I let them wait
You have a million things to do and I book 9 to 5: stay at home

You sing like butterflies catching breeze
I yell and try to stay in melody
When you mess up and fail, I laugh like you meant to do it all along

BRIDGE
They say opposites attract and we have no idea why
Cuz I swear in my whole life you're the only one who sees me eye-to-eye

CHORUS
In a world that don't make sense
Look how perfectly we mesh
You say you have to leave and I fasten myself around your feet
Who's to say we just don't fit
I say that's the funnest part of it
I tell you I have to go and you look my way and tell me "no"



some things, you never forget, i guess <3.

i have the melody in my head, so i just need to add some more verses and then figure out what chords to use.... and then Little Sister can harmonize it X3!!!

for now, though, i have to go deliver fliers in the baking hot sun. (i. will. be. BLACK. o_O)

it's a feeling that comes and goes, but likes to stay long past its worn welcome, if welcomed at all. (not. at. all.)

looking at things from this perspective, there are only oodles of pieces, strewn about in a mess that would take forever to fix. (it's fixable, right? (maybe it's not.))

you can see where the breaks originated and where the cracks lead to more shatters; there are pieces still being chiseled apart; there are pieces that you attempt to fuse together; there is effort in this, though the effort is dead.

there's you and all these broken things that you're breaking that were already broken before you arrived. (what right have you?) (letting something break is the same thing as breaking it yourself?)

anyway, why try to fix it if it fights you? because it doesn't realize it is fighting? but why are you solely held accouMAYBEYOUSHOULDGOSUCKAGOATSCOCKANDCHOKEANDDIEYOUBITCHntable?

(it isn't fair, she sobs.

but there are worse problems.

why are there always worse problems.

she shakes her head miserably. it isn't fair.

there is neglect in this.

or have you just failed?)

yet,


where is the body? find it find it find it

i just saw a peak at the 2010 Nu!Trek calendar.

...

whiiiiiiiiiiiine. D:

srsly, these people are terrible at marketing. i was all giddied up for a wall calendar with boxes i could finally actually write things in (my zombie calendar is operation: fail at this point), and just about blew a fucking fitgasm when i zeroed in on a Star Trek XI one.

unfortunately, i had expected more effort. i.e. a more creative layout, prettier graphics, pictures that don't look copy and pasted onto each month and can't be found on the first page of Google Images when searching 'trek 2009'....

wtf, TWILIGHT has a better calendar, and that there is WRONG in purest form.


dammit, Walter. (no, i am still not over that. >.>)

i've continued following dynastywarriors on my flist, cuz sometimes good stuff still pops up there :3. (am considering to stop watching beexsam. it just don't make the cut no more, tsk tsk! and i'm pretty sure it's no loss to just totally drop out of high_born, cuz i think it's abandoned now and i need the Sokka in there to fully quench my thirst. BUT ANYWAY--!!!)

today, i was scrollin' on through and found an icon post, and clicked, cuz icons are very sparkly but not in a stupid vampire sue way and in an awesome way, and found such a pretty freagin' gem: my new Nu Wa icon!

yup! found a new one. maybe. not sure if it's actually a new obsession, but it's definitely cute and i definitely support <3. It's called Jalex, which is Justin/Alex (from Wizards of Waverly Place), which is incest, but OMG MY WEAKNESS IS BIGBRO/LILSIS FORGIVE ME?!?!

these two are TOO, too cute on the show. David Henrie 'n' Selena Gomez have AWESOME chemistry. and actually, the ENTIRE CAST makes me fangasm. good acting makes me happy in my heart <3.

(gosh, i need to become a production assistant or something.)

but ANYWAY, back to Jalex. i do like it. but i suppose i don't feel as strongly for it because i started out as a Justin/Harper fan, because Harper is amazing awesome and her (past) disturbing devotion to Justin is cute. at least i think so.


BUT ANYWAY---!!!

back to Jalex. i don't believe i am obsessed (yet), but these two have WAY too many moments on the show to NOT fangirl over them. like, i know i loved Jackson/Miley, but their relationship was NEVER EVER done even remotely close to as fantabulous as the writers make Justin and Alex.


srsly, eek. omg eek. i shall now join a Jalex community where there will be (eek!) fic and (eek!) vid and (EEK!) picspam. love picspam.

i saw something like this on a inell's journal got *INSPIRED* to make my own! (she is fantabulously charming, btw, and i <3 her Kirk/McCoy stuff.)



Lupin III <3 Because I've drifted in and out and inbetween fandoms and obsessions, but seeing this scrawny monkey manchild thief run around in hijinks still touches a certain part of my heart and tugs.
getting people to laugh
accomplishing things
random acts of kindness
awesomely fluid teamwork <3 It's better than sex.
smelling like dessert foods <3 Preferably chocolate, but cream food scents smell yummy, too!!!
eating dessert foods
physical contact <3 Without pervy ulterior motives, please!
looking hella cute
losing weight
creating <3 Writing, drawing, amvs, the woiks!
catchy cool songs
keeping busy
learning
mind-highs <3 Sativa FTW!!!
being completely silly <3 Never EVER grows stale.
humor
good fanfiction
favorite colors <3 Mellow yellows, indigo blues, greyish blues, greys, black, white, and pale pink. And warm brown hues. And pastels of all sorts. And... *trails off*
!!! ONE PIECE !!! <3 <3 <3 I am ashamed to admit that this was tacked onto the list later. (Date now 09/03/09.) Because One Piece is basically anything and everything I've ever wanted in an anime. It stole my heart at "bullets can't hurt me!!!" and since reading the first volume of the manga, it has remained in my top, right next to Lupin.



so, wow, my mood's a lot lighter now. and tonight, Little Sister 'n' I are going to watch the Wizards of Waverly Place movie 8D!!! ...and i am the only 19-year-old i know who is excited about it. BANZAI.

The one who made the first step forward might have been expected to, logically. He was eldest of them, as well as a Professor, and he had really yet to have a true 'good guy' moment in this story that his heart so longed for. Putting himself between his students and Umbridge, he drew his weapon.

"Back! I say, BACK!" Blertzipuim cried. "Or I shall sick my bumbershoot upon you, I will!" He flapped it open and close in an erratic fashion, perhaps to appear as more of a threat.

It was rather adorable.

"I'll help you, Blertzipuim!" Harry declared, jumping into the fray with his own umbrella. "You do as he says or you'll have MY bumbershoot to reckon with, too!" He mimicked Blertzipuim's movements.

And that just made it precious.

Draco could be seen flailing as he beheld the scene from behind a tree, enthralled.

Alyssa threw a rock at him. "Go AWAYYY. Christ!" He skittered off with a surprised squeak and she turned to Moshi. "Can't you...do...something about him?"

A wicked grin split across the addressed's face. "I'll see to it." And as she bounded off, Alyssa caught sight of a light yellow Pokemon umbrella in the Slytherin's fist.




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...This. This is what my friend Phessa 'n' I do when we're together.

hi, friends!

<3

i really, truly do like all of you a hell of a lot.

cuz it seems a lot of you are having some rough times right now. and i've unfortunately been pretty awol lately. but, well...i'd like to save the time to reply to everyone's entries when i'm more coherent in the brain.

so, for now, i will sleep for at least three hours and not think about

Her heart says no pressure. There's her feet and the edge and the distance between.

Humans can't fly, no. Not without their contraptions and inventions and technology. But her heart feels as if it's fluttering. It says I am as unsure as you, though she remembers distinctly that she should listen to it if she doesn't know what to do.

A step forward.

Humans don't fly, though. They would need wings for that, something to catch the air and push them up and around. Allow them to toy with gravity's demands, in a way that humans have never been able to do.

They've all dropped, never to rise again. They lie still and most of the time, they begin to leak. These are how humans fail. How they've always failed. In the battle between the air, the pull, and the ground, they lose somewhere. Outcome remaining true hundred percent. So far. There is always a first. She has never dangled against nothing.

Never fallen liberally with only the below to break her (fall).

Never tried doing this before.

The last step is one that leaves her toes stretched into wind.

Her heart speaks again, softly. There is always a first.

i will forgive you for making hysterically stupid choices in the past if only for the fact that the acting you did in Transformers 2 was satisfactory. like, back to the Disturbia-status you that i fell in love with.

seriously, dude? you scared me in Indiana Jones. and again in Eagle Eye. i thought you were losing your touch.

but so long as you keep acting well, i shall forever remain true.


...okay, now, c'mere.

*hug*

<3

so, i've basically been letting one of those anonymous-fic-request-comment memes devour my very being. (okay, two of those memes, actually.) so, that's where i've been spending all my free time XDXD.

made my first post today, too! anonymity is freagin' delicious.

only thing is...when i posted my fic anonymously (and therefore uneditable-ly), the format tags didn't transfer over.

*tear-jerking disappointment*


not the worst that could happen, i guess, tho some of the fic is destroyed. T_T but i've learned my lesson. and i guess if my name isn't attached, no one can name who was the idiot who didn't know how to format.



I SHARE THIS SO THAT OTHERS MAY LEARN FROM MY MISTAKE.

GOOD DAY.

Watched the Star Trek movie about a week ago. I will watch it again very soon, in the very front row in attempt to overload my senses with its glory. (Though I am worried about the rewatchability....)

But, anyway, since Spock 'n' Jim are pretty much the start of all slash, I guess it was inevitable for there to be so much bromance in the film. As such, it is also inevitable for me to eventually fall into the slash division of the fandom and pick my preferred bottom for the couple.

Which is Jim.

Hence, why:



1) Jim gets his ass handed to himself throughout the entire movie.

This is not a joke. Even in a childhood scene, an asswhooping is being foreshadowed. And since we slashers usually like to have bottomers that are put through a lot of pain...well....


2) Spock could kick Jim's ass.

In bed and out of bed. Vulcans are way stronger than humans, after all. When Jim went 'n' threw a fit, who stepped in and was able to stop him in a split second? It should also be noted that in the entirety of the movie, Jim never came close to killing Spock. Vice versa? Hellll yeah~.


3) Jim is shorter than Spock.

By an inch or two more or less. I looked up the actors' heights to confirm this because I. Am. Crazy.


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anyway, i'm gonna go look up more Spork fic. and look up a bunch of intelligently obscure words on Thesaurus.com so i can talk like Spock IRL XDXD.

hmm.... well, i'm pretty sure i spotted this somewhere on my flist. i rediscovered it while cleaning out my bookmarks 5 minutes ago.

That song is just a catchy exploitation of homosexuality. The concept was outdated before the song even hit the airwaves, and the lyrics are nothing clever nor special. Plus, it has sexist undertones.

well, it looks like i won't be quitting the flier job until autumn after all.

i just felt bad, since we're already low on help and summer is the busiest time of year x_X!!! i can wait to move out 'til then. hopefully.

anyway, i've still been seeking out other jobs i could do. one of which i applied for was a Mushroom Grower's Assistant.

( yes! i did! )

does it feel like i don't have time for anything i love anymore or what?

it's all my fault, i know. but when the hell did most of my goals get so unappealing???

to avoid doing what i need to do, i end up just sitting there. not even doing anything i like, like writing or reading or playing a videogame. i can't consciously use the time on something i'm not supposed to be doing, so i end up doing nothing at all. wasting.


jogging lost its feeling of accomplishment long ago, mostly because i've been overeating and it only feels like a lame make up to jog. i've also stopped doing my core exercises.

there's gotta be a name for a person like me. o, wait, there is: idiot.

pahhhh....


i feel like i'm failing horribly at life. dammit dammit dammit. give me something pointless, something that doesn't do me any good, something that'll get me absolutely no where in life---and i'll be able to preform it flawlessly.

everything else, and i'm just...incredibly slow and stupid.


...but i know what to do. i know. i know. i know. i know exactly.

it's like...i have to shut some part of my brain off.... or something. the part that turned on and took over. and i let it cuz i'd liked it initially, but now....

there's no replacement for living, y'know?



click.

Well, after trying this one out, I've officially decided to stick with the Yodel-ay-he. Not saying that Lathers & Lights is terrible! No, L&L really is awesome <3.

( And thus, we compare a bit with The Body Bakery and stuff )

( the emo intro XD )

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so, me taking action = making sure i pass the one class i do have a chance with, acting like a polite stranger around the Crush, applying for graveshift work, jogging for 50 minutes at night time, buying my own cellphone, and...uh...utilizing the Law of Attraction! XDXD



(p.s. sorry for being so neglectful lately.... i still read every post on my flist <3! i promise to come back fully when i've navigated through this current storm.)

so, on a whim, i typed in "goemonxlupin" into the google searchbar and clicked the "I'm Feeling Lucky" button, and ended up being sent to my lj.



...just one o' those moments where it feels like fail and win at the same time.