Current mood:	clutching to equilibrium
Current music:	Linkin Park . What I've Done
Entry tags:	moshi-life

wherein being an optimist saves me
i've...officially fucked myself over. with life. with everything. with school, the Crush, work, the pt, finances.... (o, gosh. the Crush. ;_;) just everything.

and it's a lot harder to deal with when you're your own worst enemy. when it's someone else brutally raping you with a baseball bat, it's them doing it. but when you find yourself doing stupid things, there's only a "why?" and a reason (you're stupid), and stupidness attracts more stupidness don'cha know, so on with the downward spiral.



...but...

the only way we can move is forward, and you miss too many things if you keep your head down.




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so, me taking action = making sure i pass the one class i do have a chance with, acting like a polite stranger around the Crush, applying for graveshift work, jogging for 50 minutes at night time, buying my own cellphone, and...uh...utilizing the Law of Attraction! XDXD



(p.s. sorry for being so neglectful lately.... i still read every post on my flist <3! i promise to come back fully when i've navigated through this current storm.)